Monthly Archives: February 2015

Dictionary of Me – Flick Through

28th February 2015

Dictionary of Me - journaling, collecting every image you like in one journal. http://journalingsage.com
Yesterday I filled an entire notebook (Moleskine Softcover in large) with every image I liked from several magazines. The journal contains the whole picture of all the images I came acrossed that I liked. It wasn’t a collage with purpose, nor a moodboard to show off taste. The only deciding factor in whether an image went into the journal or not was whether I liked it.
Dictionary of Me - fill a whole notebook with images you like from magazines. Making space for the things you like is important. http://journalingsage.com

The process took the whole day and it was a lot more of an emotional roller coaster than I had expected. I thought this would be a fun thing to do, something creative to do for the day. I didn’t realise it was going to be a battle with my negative, judge-y thoughts in my head for the right for me to express myself.

Dictionary of Me - fill a whole notebook with images you like from magazines. Making space for the things you like is important. http://journalingsage.com

The first negative thought was ‘oh my goodness, I am wasting an ENTIRE Moleskine on just whimsy stuff I like.’ Followed by ‘who do I think I am to be wasting a whole notebook, a Moleskine no less, on stuff I like? It’s not like I have good taste. People would think this is a blasmouphus act towards a notebook!’ That was quickly followed by ‘Only artists get to fill up a notebook with images they like, you know, because they are artists. I am so not an artist, I should not be doing this.’

Dictionary of Me - fill a whole notebook with images you like from magazines. Making space for the things you like is important. http://journalingsage.com

So on and on my resistance shouted and screamed at me the whole time. On and on I ripped pages out of magazine, stuck them in my journal, washi taped stuff in. The resistance throw everything it had at me. How I’m doing something that isn’t my right to do (the whole not being a ‘proper’ artist’ thing again), that this wasn’t journaling or art journaling, what on earth was I going to do with it afterwards.

Dictionary of Me - fill a whole notebook with images you like from magazines. Making space for the things you like is important. http://journalingsage.com

My answer to all those resistance was ‘it doesn’t matter. I want to do this, in this way, and THAT MATTERS.’ 

Dictionary of Me - fill a whole notebook with images you like from magazines. Making space for the things you like is important. http://journalingsage.com

What you want to do, in the way you want to do it matter too. Your brain will throw you a countless reasons why you shouldn’t start/stop immediately what you are wanting to do/are doing. Those thoughts won’t even fade away just because you are doing it. Those thoughts will stay with you the whole damn time. But keep going. Ignore the resistance and keep going. It’s totally worth it.

Dictionary of Me - fill a whole notebook with images you like from magazines. Making space for the things you like is important. http://journalingsage.com

You might not like the result of what you did when you’ve finished. That’s totally normal. After all, it’s very hard to like and enjoy something you’ve created through so much hate messages coming from the one person that really knows how to hurt you – you. Give the work some time alone.

Dictionary of Me - fill a whole notebook with images you like from magazines. Making space for the things you like is important. http://journalingsage.com

Give the work some time alone. Give yourself a break from the horrid thoughts that have been going through your head. Go away and come back the next day or the following week and have another look. I promise you you will love what you’ve done, and you will love the you that worked through all that resistance and created this beautiful work.

Dictionary of Me - fill a whole notebook with images you like from magazines. Making space for the things you like is important. http://journalingsage.com

Once you’ve come back to your work and reconnected with that brave warrior you that worked through all those negative thoughts, then share your work. Share your work with your family, friends, and the world so that they too can get inspired to do what you just did – being brave, embracing yourself and allowing you some physical space to express who you are.

Dictionary of Me - fill a whole notebook with images you like from magazines. Making space for the things you like is important. http://journalingsage.com

That’s exactly what I am doing by sharing some of the pages from my Dictionary of Me here on the blog. You can find my Dictionary of Me over on my flickr album. I hope this encourages you to make some physical space for who you are, what you like and express yourself in a way that you want to. Big hugs x

Dictionary of Me - fill a whole notebook with images you like from magazines. Making space for the things you like is important. http://journalingsage.com Dictionary of Me - fill a whole notebook with images you like from magazines. Making space for the things you like is important. http://journalingsage.com Dictionary of Me - fill a whole notebook with images you like from magazines. Making space for the things you like is important. http://journalingsage.com Dictionary of Me - fill a whole notebook with images you like from magazines. Making space for the things you like is important. http://journalingsage.comDictionary of Me - fill a whole notebook with images you like from magazines. Making space for the things you like is important. http://journalingsage.com

Giving up on Judging

26th February 2015

giving up on judging http://journalingsage.com journal, journaling, notebook, creativity

What would happen if we stopped judging? What would flood into our minds in its place?

This is the thought that appeared in my journal after a week of travelling. When you are travelling, it’s so easy to judge. Judge the new culture you are walking into, judge the people you meet on the road, judge the experiences you go through. In some ways we use judging as a comfort blanket for when we are in unfamiliar situations. We use it to justify the discomfort we are experiencing and use it to excuse ourselves from facing the real cause of the discomfort within ourselves. If we judge others to be wrong, we don’t have to deal with the fact that there might be other ways to do and live than the one you are doing or living.

What would happen if we stopped judging? What would flood into our minds in its place?

Love, compassion, understanding and forgiveness would flood into our minds in the place left empty by giving up judging. I think we hold on to judgment so tightly because are are so fearful that all these beautiful positive things would flood our lives instead. And that’s a really scary prospect.

We judge our efforts at journaling because we might otherwise have to love what we created on the page. We might have to otherwise love the person that created such beautiful images and words. We might have to embrace the fact that we are flawed and yet very beautiful. We might have to forgive all the hurt we have received and have given. We might have to even love ourselves for who we are.

That to me sounds like a whole bunch of scary stuff. Yes, judging my own handwriting to be not good enough, or my ideas not good enough or that I’m a bad journaller because I don’t journal everyday (and I make up words) IS so much easier. As much as it’s horrible to do this to ourselves and stunt our possible emotional growth, it’s much easier than embracing all the love, compassion, understanding and forgiveness we are yet to experience.

It’s much easier to judge yourself for not having a good enough handwriting than to love that your handwriting really changes with and reflects your mood. It’s much easier to judge yourself for not doing journaling ‘properly’ because you don’t journal everyday than to understand the fact you have your own rhythm in how you want to journal. It’s much easier to judge that the thought you just had now is not an important enough idea to write down, than to spend the next half an hour writing and deeply exploring your mind for what it want to tell you.

These things are all far too huge for us to be able to change in one day, or even by just reading this post. We can’t suddenly be ripped away from our age-loved comfort blanket. It doesn’t work like that. I wouldn’t want you to rip off your blanket just to be brave. That’s not being brave, that’s not giving yourself the space to grow into something new at your own speed. All I ask for you to do now is to just mull over the question:

What would happen if we stopped judging? What would rush in to our minds in its place?

February Journaling Prompts

1st February 2015

February Journal Prompt. Daily Journaling Prompt for Creative Happiness. http://journalingsage.com

  1. What is your intention for the month?
  2. What are you ready to stop feeling guilty about?
  3. What risks are you not taking for fear of judgement by others?
  4. List the things you’d give up to be happy.
  5. What 3 things can you do today to show yourself some love?
  6. Who can help you this year?
  7. Everyday I show my passion by…
  8. What do you want to make happen this month? What do you need to make it happen?
  9. What can you do this evening that would feel playful?
  10. Who makes you feel stronger when you speak to them? Go and make another date with them.
  11. What was your mum or dad’s favourite quote when you were growing up?
  12. What small action could you take today to feel more peaceful?
  13. Are you happy with the way you respond to compliments? What small change can you make to your reaction?
  14. What can you remove from your morning routine to increase the sense of abundance of time?
  15. What were your successes this week?
  16. List 3 things you can do this evening to nourish your soul.
  17. What positive thing do you bring to your relationships with your friends?
  18. What activities makes you feel more connected to another person? How can you expand this in your life?
  19. Not my circus, not my monkeys.’ What crazy behaviours of others should you let go of?
  20. What things feel just one step outside of your comfort zone? Could you have a go at just one of them?
  21. Everyday I show courage by…
  22. List 30 things you want to do before your next birthday.
  23. What can you do today that makes the most powerful use of your life right now?
  24. What aspects of your life are flowing well? Which aspects are not?
  25. Who do you admire the most? What qualities do you admire in them so much?
  26. When was the last time you felt you really shined as you were?
  27. What are you most proud about your life right now?
  28. What seems out of reach to you?